Searching for Answers

2 AM. She’s crying again.

I’m exhausted.

Why won’t she sleep?

I go to warm up the formula and feel the guilt creeping in.

Why isn’t my milk enough?

Why can’t I make more?

How do other moms do it so easily?

Am I not good enough?

I remember sitting there, questioning everything—my body, my ability, my worth. So naturally, I turned to Google. “Is this normal?” “Why do I feel like this?” “Is my baby okay?”

I was searching… for answers, for comfort, for something to tell me I wasn’t broken.

Time passed. My baby grew, and I found out I was pregnant again. So many symptoms, so many appointments, and my body was struggling once again.

My second baby born early, just like my first. His lungs didn’t develop fully. Air was trapped in his chest and he couldn’t breathe on his own.

It was terrifying. All over again, I felt like everything was falling apart.

But I was determined this time. I had learned from before. I had asked questions, done the research, and prepared as much as I could. When the lactation consultant came to see me, I was ready with all of my concerns. Especially on how to protect my milk supply.

She handed me a simple log sheet to track every single drop I pumped or fed. It may not sound like much, but it made all the difference.

For the first time, I could see my progress.

That gave me hope.

It gave me confidence.

It reminded me that I was doing something right.

I also made sure to get more support—support I didn’t have with my first. I asked better questions, got help from trusted sources, and most of all, gave myself grace. I'm still learning. I still make mistakes. But I’ve gained so much and I want to share it.

That’s why I created this blog and the For Moms section of my website.

To offer real, honest support.

To share reliable information from professionals.

To pass along the things I wish I had known sooner.

And to remind other moms that they are not alone.

So follow along as I share my stories, advice, and small but powerful tips to help make your motherhood journey just a bit more supported—and a lot more seen